"Some of the greatest battles will be fought within the silent chambers of your own soul." - Ezra Taft Benson

Anyone who has experienced some form of inner struggle in their lives will agree to this. It’s very hard when you know that what you are trying to overcome is inside you. At times you ask yourself why you’re like this or that… or doubt yourself if you will be able to conquer it. There also comes to a point that you blame yourself because it is you who you’re trying to overcome.

Often times I think too much. I don’t know if I’m just being too self-absorbed or living by the book. I’m uptight and self-controlled that I feel I’m missing the best things in life. Many times I envy those people who just do that they want to do without regard of what other people might think of them. On the other hand, we are guided by tried and tested laws and norms (society, wisdom, morality, God’s laws, etc…) and following them isn’t that bad.

But the decision is still with us. We can choose on what path to take and determine what applies in our own situation. Here’s a quote by Peter Parker from the movie Spiderman 3:

"Whatever comes our way, whatever battle we have raging inside us; we always have a choice… It’s the choices that make us who we are, and we can always choose to do what’s right."

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I’m reminded of a chat with a friend and it went like this:

[Me]: minsan gusto ko na mag-enjoy at magpakaloko

[Friend]: well, pwede ka naman mag-enjoy ng hindi nagpapaka-loko…

…she is right; maybe we can strike a balance in enjoying life and doing what’s right.